The one and only star...

"Everything has its own beginning. The longest book begins with a single word. The longest journey begins with a single step. At Kirkston Abbey the first step was an unexpected act of kindness." - The Wishing Game by Patrick Redmond

"If they toss out enough nouns, something is bound to sound familiar."

"Another thing I never liked: boys playing sports, girls applauding them from the sidelines. It seemed like when you're a kid, the mothers sat on the bleachers and applauded, and then when you got older, the girlfriends did. How come females always watched males and said, 'Go you!'. It kind of sucked."

"Religion gave you easy answers like, 'It's God's will' or 'She's in a better place now', but who really knew if that was true? Anything might be true, but I was starting to think a lot of what people said they believed was what they wanted to believe to make themselves feel better." - Blind Faith

Anne Osterlund
Academy 7

Annette Curtis Klause
The Silver Kiss

Charlaine Harris
The Southern Vampire Mysteries Series
- Dead Until Dark
- Living Dead in Dallas

Ellen Schreiber
Vampire Kisses Series
- Vampire Kisses
- Kissing Coffins
- Vampireville
- Dance with a Vampire
- Coffin Club
- Royal Blood

Ellen Wittlinger
Blind Faith*

Gena Showalter
Intertwined

Jennifer Echols
Going Too Far

Kelley Armstrong
Darkest Powers Series*
- The Summoning
- The Awakening*

Kerrelyn Sparks
Love at Stake Series*
- How to Marry a Millionaire Vampire
- Vamps and the City
- Be Still My Vampire Heart*
- The Undead Next Door
- All I want for Christmas is a Vampire*
- Secret of a Vampire Life
- Forbidden Nights with a Vampire

Jeaniene Frost
Night Huntress Series
- Halfway to the Grave

Kresley Cole
The Immortals After Dark series
- A Hunger Like No Other

Kristin Cashore
Graceling*
Fire

Laura Whitcomb
A Certain Slant of Light*

Lisa Jane Smith
The Night World Series*
- Secret Vampire
- Daughters of Darkness
- Enchantress
- Dark Angel
- The Chosen*
- Soulmate
- Huntress*
Dark Visions Series*
- The Strange Power*
- The Possessed*
- The Passion*

Lurlene McDaniel
A Rose to Melinda

Maggie Stiefvater
Lament The Faerie Queen's Deception
Ballad A Gathering of Faerie

Maria V. Snyder
Poison Study

Nicholas Sparks
Message in a Bottle

Patrick Redmond
The Wishing Game*
Apple of My Eye
All She Ever Wanted

Richelle Mead
Vampire Academy Series*
- Vampire Academy*
- Frostbite*
- Shadow Kiss*
- Blood Promise*

Scott Westerfeld
Midnighters Series
- The Secret Hour
- Touching Darkness
- Blue Noon

Sherrilyn Kenyon
Dark Hunter Series
- Unleash the Night
- Dream Chaser
- Devil May Cry
- Acheron

Simone Elkeles
Perfect Chemistry*
Leaving Paradise

Stephenie Meyer
The Twilight Series
- Twilight

ROMAJI by me

Yomikake no hon kara koboreta
Furuboketa ichimai no tegami
Atesaki to kitte wo soeru dake no
Uketori te no nai kawai souna tegami

Genki desu ka
Kawarinai desu ka
Sochira ni wa sukoshi naremashita ka
Deai kara maru ichinen desu ne
Narenai tegami wa sukoshi teremasu ne

Sono saki ga yomenai no
Nijinde yomenai no
Iroaseru no ga kowakute
Fude wo hashiraseru
Baka na watashi wo mite
Anata warau kashira
Soretomo isshou ni naite kureru kashira

Ano hi anata wo ubatta asufaaruto
Kiku no hanataba
Tsutsushinde soeta tegami

Sayonara mo iwanaide
Kietetta zurui hito
Nokosareta watashi kowareta eishaki mitai
Wagamama de tsuyogaride demo yasashikute sensai na
Anata wo wasurenai utsushi tsuzukeru

Translation by gurakko

From the book I was reading fell　　A single letter blurred with age
A pitiful letter with just the address and stamp attached, without a recipient

"How are you?"
"Are you still the same?"
"Have you grown a little more used to that place?"
"It's been almost a year since we met."
"It's kind of embarrassing that I'm not used to writing letters."

I can't read beyond that Can't read the blurred lines
Afraid that the colours would fade, I start writing
Looking at how silly I'm being, will you laugh?
Or will you cry with me?

You were robbed from me that day by ASPHALT A bouquet of chrysanthemums A discreetly attached letter

How sly of you to disappear without even saying goodbye
Left behind, I'm like a broken projector
Endlessly displaying this selfish, always stubbornly putting up a strong front; yet kind and sensitive
You, whom I can't forget

"When the first snow hits those windows 50 times, we'll be reunited" - A Millionaire's First Love

"If there is an afterlife, I want to be mother's son again. A bright and outstanding son whom you can be proud of. I love you, mother. I really love you, mother. In my entire life, there wasn't a moment I didn't love you. I really love you, mother. Thank you for giving birth to me." - I'm Sorry I Love You

"Why do you look up to the sky? Every time you stop somewhere, your heart starts talking about a sadness that no one understands" - Saigo no Kawa by Chemistry lyrics

"I'm holding back the tears. I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart, to a place that is neither close nor far, where a different me stands. I will not cry"
"I'm holding back the tears. I run adding to the weight of my faith, to a place that is neither high nor low, where a different me stands again. With a small smile I can laugh" - Holding Back the Tears by DBSK lyrics

"There are people in this world who have chosen to kill their own emotions" - Shadow from FFVI

"Even if the world becomes your enemy, I'll be your knight" - Squall Leonhart from FFVIII

"You lose to claim a new or to claim a new only to lose" - Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories

"The moment you start to hope, you give others permission to hurt you" - Sakura fanfic by iheartuknow

"The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty" - FFX wallpaper artist

"If I could be any part of you, I'd be your tears. To be conceived in your heart, born in your eyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips" - Unknown

I'm Sorry I Love You is certainly a nice drama to watch. The storyline centres not only on boy-girl love but parental love as well, and perhaps this is what makes me like this drama so much.

The protagonist of this drama, Che Moon Hyuk is an orphan who was abandoned and adopted by a foreigner and was brought all the way to Australia. His life over there wasn't a bit happy as he was abused by his foster parents and he left home at a young age of 10 to strive on his own, living a life of poverty and delinquent-like. He had a girlfriend he really loved but that bitch left him and married someone else for money's sake. Because of this and that, he took 2 bullets in his head. One was removed, however for the second bullet, it was too deep in his skull, and there was no way to extract it out. Che Moon Hyuk had only a few months to live.

At the very start of the drama, it was already told directly that Moon Hyuk was unlike other orphans who hate their own parents for abandoning them. Rather, he believed that his parents were having a hard time and decided to give away their own child for his sake, hoping that the child would live a better life under the care of someone else. With this thought in mind, he really hoped to see his parents, to work hard and buy them nice clothes and food. However, all these thoughts were torn apart when he found out his mother was actually a famous actress and has a son who is a singer. Poverty? Not even close. Feeling betrayed, he pledged revenge and got close to the mother and son.

In episode 4, when the mother accidentally broke a few plates, and her feet were injured by the broken shards of glass, Moon Hyuk carried her away from those shards and bandaged her bleeding feet. However, the woman was all shaken that a stranger was at her house and kept crying for his son - Choi Yoon. Instead of feeling grateful, she complained to Yoon that Moon Hyuk is a scary man and has no idea what he was doing at her house. Moon Hyuk, having heard all these, was of course heart broken. As he was picking up those broken shards, he held one so tightly that his hand was bleeding profusely. He was tearing. It wasn't because of the pain he felt in his hand but the pain he felt in his breaking heart.

There were many times when Moon Hyuk felt like stopping everything he was doing, for the sake of his loved one - Eun Chae. However, the story couldn't carry on if he stopped revenging that soon. In one scene when Eun Chae was hugging Moon Hyuk, telling him that he wasn't alone anymore, this hit him greatly as he cried, embracing Eun Chae back. I think at that moment he thought that someone was finally there for him.

In the later episodes, when he found out that Yoon wasn't the mother's own son, he was shocked and at this point, he was forgiving his mother already. He hugged his mother so tightly, it was heart wrenching for me! Skipping to the main point, when he realised the truth his mother didn't abandon him like what he had thought, all the images of him plotting and suffering came flashing back. They were a sense of guilt and regret. He requested his mother to cook him lunch and while eating, he was crying uncontrollably. The taste of the food cooked by his mother, the taste he longed for so long. It was this scene that tears just came flowing or flooding.
"If there is an afterlife, I want to be mother's son again. A bright and outstanding son whom you can be proud of. I love you, mother. I really love you, mother. In my entire life, there wasn't a moment I didn't love you. I really love you, mother. Thank you for giving birth to me." GAH, just typing this makes me want to cry! From this, we can tell how much he yearned for his mother, how much he missed her and how much he loved her. Even though he was having his revenge, there wasn't a time he hated his mother. All he ever wanted was someone/his mother to love him.

Moon Hyuk as a character, I think he is someone who cherishes relationships a lot. He values and loves the people around him and would do anything for them. Just like how he shielded his ex-girlfriend from the bullets, how he would forgive his mother no matter what, how he would always place Eun Chae ahead of himself. And of course, a son who is always seeking for his mother's love.

Beautiful.

Shigofumi is the latest anime I have finished watching. It is kind of creepy, mysterious and touches a bit on reality. One of the episodes that left a deep impression on me was episode 3 or 4, I think. It was about a high school student who would take the train to school everyday. Every time he stood on the platform, a strange thought would surface from his mind, and that was, "what would happen if I jump (from the platform)?" Truthfully, I have this thought at times when I stand on the platform too. What would happen if I jump? Even though the answer is obviously death, this thought still emerges. It's not that I want to die. I have absolutely zero thoughts of suicidal but it's just strange how I or the author of the anime think. I remember there was one time when I sneaked on to the rooftop with my friends. I was looking at the ground from the rooftop and the thought I mentioned above flashed in my mind too. It was kind of scary so I quickly withdrew from the rooftop.

In that episode, that student's friend who was always cheerful jumped off the building. He had the same thought as the student. No one would have guessed that he would actually commit suicide. However, it wasn't even considered a suicide. All he did was jump. It was just an action or a verb and the consequence of answering his own question was undeniably death.

I don't know what I'm trying to get across here but it's strange how humans view things or maybe it's just me.

PC - Completed
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy VIII

GBA - Completed
Final Fantasy IV Advance
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance

Nintendo DS - Completed
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance 2 - Grimoire of the Rift

GBA - Incomplete
Final Fantasy I & II - Dawn of Souls
Kingdom Hearts - Chain of Memories

GBA - Ongoing
Final Fantasy VI Advance

Nintendo DS - Ongoing
Final Fantasy III
Final Fantasy XII - Relevant Wings

Watched
Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children
Final Fantasy VII - Crisis Core
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2

"Even if the world doesn't need me, I'll be live on for the sake of the people who need me" - Kyoko Honda from Fruits Basket

"Ichi wa Zen, Zen wa Ichi"
"One is all, all is one" - Ed & Al from FMA

"You can lose your way and you can even wander... as long as you find your way out" - Manga

What I look out for in an anime character

Males
- White hair (Killua ♥)
- Short spiked hairstyle (Killua, yes.)
- Dark, mysterious and quiet
- Hoarse, husky voice (Suzuken and Takahiro are my ♥!)

Females
- Long hair (Lucy ♥)
- Independent
- Physically or mentally strong
- Calm (Ouran Haruhi!)
- Husky voice too (Wahaha, Lucy!)

What I DON'T look out for in an anime character

Males
- Silver hair (They are just, ugh.)
- Long hair (Too gay. Kazuki from GetBackers is a total exception. He's too lovable and pretty to hate)
- Overly hyper active

Females
- Arrogant
- Loud
- Dense and stupid (Kotoko from Itakiss?)
- Irritating high pitch voice (That stupid usagi from Suzumiya Haruhi)
- Big boobs (-.-)

I just finished watching episode 1 of Special A aka S.A. Surprisingly, it was much better than coughvampirecoughknightcough in my opinion. The way the scenes were animated has a flow and everything seems smooth and easy. Furthermore, the voice actors and actresses were marvelous! I just love how every seiyuu fits the character's personality so well! As for the animated art, Hikari looks a bit weird to me. Especially her eyes (they took up too much space on her face). I think she looks prettier in the manga. The other characters look awesome though. I might even have a slight crush on Tadashi and Ryuu! ♥

The storyline is pretty well developed too, even though they cut quite a few chapters/scenes. I believe this is better for the anime 'cos I don't really want to see so much of Hikari's obsessed competitiveness to win over Kei. Now I only hope they will animate enough to show every character getting paired up. Ryuu and Finn, *hint hint*

I just watched episode one of Vampire Knight. It was neither good nor bad, I guess. Somehow, the animation is kind of bugging me. It's not about the art but the time line (is that what they call it?), I suppose. It's like the scenes weren't 'smooth' enough. I wonder why I think this way though. Is it because this is the first anime that I actually read the manga first before watching the anime? Is that why things seem kind of weird? Ok, other than these, the voice actors/actresses are kind of a disappointment. Especially Kaname and Zero. Kaname is supposed to be a vampire! And vampires are supposed to be dark, mysterious and creepy! However, the voice doesn't reflect much about Kaname, much less about vampires. As for Zero, his personality is those anti-social, 'act cool' type, someone who has a dark past so I think his voice is not deep and strong enough. GAH. And Aidou! Too gay. Akatsuki, too deep. I guess the only ones I'm satisfied with are Yuki, Shiki, Touya and Ruca. Nothing I can do but to just get used to it.

The funny scenes are kind of out of place too. They were SO RANDOM! HAHA, but ok, I snorted laughed a bit. Seriously, I hope they keep up with the storyline and don't stray away too much. If not, it's going to be a big disappointment!

One thing that I'm super satisfied about the anime is Shiki. LMAO. Red hair, me like! I wanna see more of him ^_^ His power is cool too, oh yeahyeahyeah.

Next Monday!

I realise I'll never update this watchlist again 'cos I know there are simply too many titles to add. Some I can't even remember.

Manga that I've read:-

Absolute Boyfriend*
Akuma de Sourou
Backstage Prince
Beast Master
Beauty is the Beast
Bitter Virgin (Special...)
Can't Lose you
Cat Street*
Chobits
Desire Climax
Full Moon wo Sagashite
Fruits Basket
Game Rush
Hana Yori Dango
H20
Inuyasha
Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne
Kare First Love
Kon no Ki Kanoha
Lovely Complex
Love Monster
Meru Puri*
Sennen no Yuki
Shinshi Doumei Cross*
You are My Girlfriend

Ongoing:-

Akagami no Shirayuki Hime
Akuma to Love Song (Special)
Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu
Boku wa Kiss de Uso wo Tsuku
Chocolate Cosmos
Crimson Hero
Detective Conan
Gakkou no Ojikan*
Gakuen Alice
Gakuen Ouji (Special)
Full House Kiss
Fushigi Yuugi Genbu Kaiden*
Hachimitsu no Hana
Hunter x Hunter
Kimi ga Suki*
Kimi ni Todoke
Kiss/Hug
Koibana! Koiseyo Hanabi
Koukou Debut
Midnight Secretary
Rocking Heaven
Shiawase Kissa Sanchoume
Skip Beat*
Special A
The One*
Vampire Knight

Read but didn't complete / no interest anymore:-

Aishiteruzu Baby
Alice 19th
Boku ni Natta Watashi
Digimon Adventures 02*
Gekka no Kimi
Good Morning Call
Love Hina
xxxHolic

Special i.e non-typical

Korea or Japan?

Wherever the boys are, be it in Japan, Korea or China, I'll feel happy for them, and support them all the way (: It doesn't make much of a difference 'cos I can understand neither Japanese or Korean perfectly and all I can rely on is subs and translations. However, to tell truthfully, when they appear on Japanese variety shows, I feel much calmer and settled. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I can understand a tiny bit of Japanese and can comprehend some part of the show even without subs. On the other hand, I don't know Korean at all and this communication barrier actually makes me seem so distant from the boys (yes, physically we're so far apart too). It's a kind of loneliness that surfaces from my heart. However, that doesn't mean I don't like their activities in Korea. My favorite song and variety show are both Korean. In Korean variety shows, the boys tend to be much more relaxed and comfortable. They laugh and goof a lot more and are not afraid to show their dorkiest side. They often laugh their heads off at jokes made by the hosts. Furthermore, the boys know the MCs well, so they are able to speak freely and frankly, not having to fear that the wrong words would be spoken (with the exception of Jaejoong, of course). Moreover, the hosts are all afraid of Ca-ah, so it seems like the boys are really akin to gods in their home country. Whereas in Japan, the boys are really careful with their words and often, their laughters arise from inner jokes, meaning Junsu is the butt of the joke.

Recently they went back to Korea and from their expressions (KBS performances), especially Changmin's, I can see that they're really happy to be back in Korea again. After all, Korea is their home.

In certain Japanese variety shows, they'd flash back some of the boys' old videos. For example, when they first went to Japan. Those were the Stay with me Tonight days. Every time I watch those videos, a strange feeling overwhelmed me. Most people feel touched because of all the efforts the boys had put in. However for me, it wasn't even closed to being touched. It was more like a sudden outburst of sadness and negativity. To see them worked so hard for the past few years, it was lonely. I feel that if only I'd known them much earlier, I could sort of go through the Rising Sun days with them. Like to be with them, at least. It was kind of a bittersweet feeling. To know that I wasn't with them but am glad that they're doing so well now, the fact that all their hard work have paid off. That's why I don't really like to watch their old videos, especially their Japanese old videos.

I am so proud of the boys! Proud Cassiopeian!

Junsu composed- White Lie, My Page, Rainy Night
Yoochun composed- Fox Rain, Evergreen
Yoochun wrote- Holding Back the Tears, Step by Step (Rap), Summer Dream (Rap)
Jaejoong- ^___^
Changmin wrote- Evergreen
Yunho composed- Spokesmen
Yunho wrote- Step by Step (Rap), Summer Dream (Rap)

Where on Earth can you find a vocal group that has vocal talent, dancing ability, wonderful & adorkable personalities and pretty looks? O_O DONGBANGSHINKI!!! HWAITING!

A lone wolf, as described in the official profile of Squall Leonhart. At the beginning of FFVIII, we see how Squall and Seifer fought, resulting in permanent scars across each other's face. Even so, neither party admitted defeat. This shows that Squall is both stubborn and strong.

In disc 1, we can already tell what sort of person Squall is. The way he dealt conversations with Quistis (poor girl) and the way he tried to avoid talking about himself show that Squall is cold and bitter. He has a wicked sense of humour as well. E.g. "go talk to the wall" and "you might be dead later". All these could easily make others hate him but his friends actually love him!

One of the reasons that turned Squall to who he is today (in FFVIII, that is) is because Ellone left him. He's an orphan who was under the care of Edea and Master Cid. During that time, he was very dependent on Ellone, wanted to be with her every single minute. Thus, the disappearance of Ellone made him very upset, to the extent of shutting his heart from the outside world. From then, he became a really independent person, not relying on anyone for he believes that depending on someone is just an act of weakness of humans. Also, the feeling of having someone he loves being taken away hurt him deeply. It's something like.. since the one you rely on, depend on is going to leave you one day, so why bother to be close with them in the first place. He's afraid of being hurt and lonely once again. Thus, he doesn't bother himself with relationships.

Everyone calls him a leader, even if he was reluctant to become one.

However, things changed when the female lead - Rinoa Heartilly appeared. Perhaps it was because of Rinoa's personality, she was able to warm the cold heart of Squall. She bothered, pestered him consistently, LOL. Always trying to open up Squall's heart. Despite many rejections by Squall, she didn't give up and continued to pester communicate with him. Later on, to cut things short, we know for a fact that Squall opened up. He's able to care and realise the importance of the people around him. His comrades, friends and of course, his precious Rinoa. He's no longer alone.

My point of view - I'm seriously in love with this guy, which I'm not sure why though. Perhaps it's because of his smart ass rebuts that made me... ^^; I like how he's really independent and strong. Also, from the way he handled the Balamb Garden and Galbadia Garden collision, I'd say he's a natural born leader.. and not to mention, he's hot ^o^!
Afterall, he's just a young boy who longs for love, ne^^ and how he desperately tried to save Rinoa in the space... woohoo. Yay

I bought this album a few months back. It's time for a review =)

01 - ZION
I believe this is the song most of the people dislike in the entire album. It starts off with .. -.-

02 - Sky
Very poppy, definitely a song of summer. It's also the kind of song that makes you like it on first listen.

03 - Begin
A beautiful ballad which starts off with soft piano and of course Yoochun's voice =).

04 - Choosey Lover
This song is sooo upbeat, R&B and you can just dance or shake along with it. I'd never in my life liked this genre of songs if it weren't for THSK. Ha. The boys' voices are exceptionally high in this song... so that makes it very smexy. A song you want to play in the disco, yeah baby! As for the lyrics... it's kind of... off track. I understand wut it's trying to say about a choosey lover, but wut's up with East, West, South and North?

05 - Dead End
Yay, my favourite of the 4 new songs! This song is very powerful but of course, not as powerful as Rising Sun or 'O'. But definitely, it gives people the feeling of DBSK's original image. Poweerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr *RWAR!!*

06 - High Time
Super catchy song =D With mostly Junsu as the main vocal. The rest sort of did a ...? The lyrics contain lots of english, (which I don't understand why for japanese songs ==;) Joongie's "Are you leidy(ready) to go" Hahs.

07 - Proud
08 - Yakusoku
09 - 'O' Sei Han Gou
10 - Miss You
11 - I'll Be There (Japanese Version)
12 - Step by Step
13 - Hello Again

Japanese dramas/movies watched:-

1 Litre of Tears
Engine*
Gokusen
Gokusen II
Hana Yori Dango*
Hana Yori Dango II*
Hanazakari Kimitachi he
Koizora
Kurosagi*
Liar Game
Lovely Complex
Mr Brain
Nobuta wo Produce*
Nodame Cantabile*
Orange Days
Pride*
Tatta Hitotsu no Koi
Trick
Trick II*
Trick III*
Zettai Kareshi*